Homeless, to a time, to a place. Generally, just floating, disconnected. Reality not apparent in the manner you may have come to expect within your days.
Anyone who isn’t confused doesn’t really understand the situation – Edward R. Murrow
How many times can you say a word in a row before it becomes unfamiliar? Till you’re not even sure what the word is anymore. What it means, if it is even a word, let alone how you might spell it.
If you stare at an object, how long does it take before you forget what they object does?
Absurd, this is the reality you ignore. This is the world you remember to forget.
A man is talking on the telephone behind a glass partition, you wonder why he is alive – Albert Camus
When you break down, your world, your actions. What do you see? Do you see what you choose, or do you see it for what it is, the absurdity of life is hiding behind the present veneer your mind creates.
Take for example the current scientific narrative, although to describe it as a narrative is the wrong description, alas, but I digress.
The recent discovery of the Higgs particle is a great example of this narrative to explain the ridiculousness that we do exist, instead of not. The discovering of this particle proved something, as it was explained to me by the brilliant Lawrence Krauss, if you leave a beer bottle in the freezer for too long and then open it, the beer will freeze upon opening and shatter the bottle. In a very similar way the Higgs field was created, by chance, as the early universe cooled it went through a phase transition releasing energy and creating the Higgs field. Without this field, particles would be massless and the conditions required to create a universe to sustain life would not have been possible.
This random chance is not the only one, but just one of many parts of this apparently finely tuned universe. You may consider that points to intelligent design, but the more of the latest scientific narrative you learn, the more you realise that this is rather unlikely and isn’t at all logical.
Once upon a time, in some out of the way corner of the universe which is dispersed into numberless twinkling solar systems, there was a star upon which clever beasts invented knowing. That was the most arrogant and mendacious minute of “world history”, but nevertheless, it was only a minute. After nature drawn in a few breaths, the star cooled and congealed, and the clever beasts had to die – Friedrich Nietzsche
Logically speaking, it is immensely more likely that we live in a simulation, rather than in the one true existence, and ironically we would, and never will know. This coupled with the fact of mans great search for meaning and purpose, we are so desperate to find this purpose we are happy to invent and follow it blindly, just because it is easier.
As humans, we desire a cosmic order, significance for our labour, and an intelligible life. But life has no order, destroys our work and is alien to us. In short the things we want – A caring universe with which one is connected and in which we are immortal and precisely the things we cannot have. We get death – Unknown
Considering all the facts of the matter one must ponder, why go on? Well, why do you? It is a good question after all. If we consider the eternal bliss of nothingness we experienced before birth, to believe this is all we face in death isn’t much to fear. The unfortunate fact of the matter is our simple instinctual state of survival is a rather conflicting view on this ending, so much so, any different narrative in which we can exist beyond death is not surprisingly rather attractive.
In the end you must wonder, why do we exist, why something rather than nothing. Personally it is only logical to create ones own meaning to life. Although there should be one area we must agree upon, doing best for the mankind, as a whole and as induviduals, should be a drive inherent and intertwined in ones actions.
To me, if life were to have any meaning it would be to enjoy the absurdity of the journey and the poetic tragedy that is death.